Something AMAZING happened.
As soon as I wrote my last post about my ex, Gary, I felt better. Well, like I said, I also reached out to him to no avail which also helped, I’m sure, but mainly I think I’m done fighting for “this” alone.
And actually, it feels so silly upon reflection.
Not like in a, “write a letter but don’t send it” kind of way, because I’ve essentially been doing that for months.
But in a, “Dude. What you are saying to yourself is ridiculous. He’s only one guy,” way.
In a, I’ll never stop fighting for my dreams, ESPECIALLY, at such a critical point, way.
In a, there’s a reason the guy at (________ <— store name here) spends as much time with me as possible when I go in and maybe it’s time to stop acting uninterested, way.
In a, there’s a reason why a small group hangs out with me after every class, and then a specific guy hangs back even after that to speak with me alone even longer, way.
In a, I look really good these days according to everyone in my life so BELIEVE IT and feel good about my body and beauty for a change, way.
In a, smack smack SMACK (third one for good measure) across my own face for even thinking of giving up what I NEVER would have before, way.
In a, I’m FINALLY free from something that kept me in a self-loathing prison, and maybe being away from Gary isn’t a coincidence, way.
In a, I realize I’m healthy enough to surrender to love while recognizing that’s something Gary could never do for me, way.
In a, I have put it out into the universe enough now, and I’m just going to stop caring and start throwing his stuff out because I have NO place in my life OR my heart for it ANYMORE, way.
In a, I won’t keep doing this to myself, way.
In a, I deserve what I want just as much as anyone else so I’m putting down that past and racing toward making those goals happen, way.
✌️ and ❤️ to ALL!