Happy Birthday to me!!!!!!! I’m officially 34 years young today!
I’ve been having a really amazing upswing since last week. I hope it keeps going!!! I’m feeling so optimistic!
Last night I went on my first date in six years. Let THAT sink in for a second.
He wasn’t Adam Driver, but, hey, nobody’s perfect.
(If you know anyone who looks exactly like that and is single please let me know ASAP because I would truly yield to everything for all of him.)
It was fantastic. Another guy who was basically worshipping me after everything I’ve been through in the past few years? Yes, please, and thank you. He even was great with my Fibro pain.
Except — who goes out on Mondays? 😉 (It’s a reference to a Chainsmokers song if you didn’t get that.)
He was good looking. He had a stupidly-over-the-top car which always makes me think someone is overcompensating for a PERSONALITY trait.
I’m talking to several guys right now — as it goes with dating apps.
I needed to move way beyond Voldemort. Oh…shoot. I mean He Who Shall Never Be Named Again.
Right now it’s raining outside and it sounds and smells amazing. That means my plants and flowers are being watered.
Random. I know.
I’m owning it today. I don’t think I’ve had a “meaningful” feeling-good-about-it birthday since my sweet sixteen.
I’m not complaining. I’m just telling the truth. None of my friends have EVER thrown me a party or even asked what I might like to do to celebrate, or have taken me out to acknowledge the occasion. Again, not complaining, but I can’t say I’m not disappointed.
But! My best friend sent me this gorgeous floral arrangement with the sweetest note and it made me cry. It was such a thoughtful gesture, and to be thought of, on any occasion — but especially remembered of my birthday — is SO special and amazing. I love you 🍌— ❤️😘💛 — you’re truly the sister I’ve never had.
So I went on this date, and I’ve never felt more confident or in control going into a date in my life.
Because now I know.
Now I know what I will and will not accept.
Now I know what I will and will not tolerate.
Now I know what I’m looking for: family = a happy life ABOVE one’s career.
Now I know I’m my best self.
Now I respect myself.
Now I’m not eff-ed up about my Dad like I was when he died six years ago.
Now I am old enough to decide whether I’m going to go back to my date’s condo the first time I meet him or not — (I didn’t.)
Now I am sure enough with myself to allow myself to kiss on a first date BUT ONLY IF I WANT TO — (I did).
Now, I’m understanding that my looks and personality attract a DIFFERENT potential mate who called me WHILE I was driving to THIS first date to tell me he wasn’t nervous because he knew he’d “win” [me]. (Hot, but only because I’m attracted to this other guy.)
Guys are literally begging for my time.
AND, I’m being 100% honest about everything that I wasn’t ready to be honest about with HWSNBNA. (And that’s not his fault.)
But not only did the guy I think I’m the most interested in text me during the date…but the guy I went on the date with was texting then calling me as soon as he got home.
This shorty got game, y’all!
Happy Birthday to me!!!!!
I feel AMAZING!
Thank you to everyone who has given me support during this time and encouraged me to get back out there.
I love you all ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😘😘😘😘😘🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶 it’s “All Because of You.”